Last 1 and a half year

Well hello, i am here after a ling time to reflect on the past 1 and a half years of my life. On July 14,2008 i joined an institute as a Lecturer, full of life, enthusiasm to change the world. the day i joined i was very excited and without even thinking once i took several things in my hand as I always knew i am capable of doing all.
I began taking personal contact forum in which i tried to shape the personality of my students by the medium of meditation, news analysis, business quiz, role plays and management games. i also began teaching management principles and training and development, beyond teaching i became the team leader of the event management team, coordinator of international seminar & international conference and the team leader of ranking compliance team.
Students were really happy with my style of teacing and development , even i was happy with my hardwork and soon i was representing the institute in various parts of india in various seminars, professor of various institutes appreciated my way of communication and confidence.
Soon i realised the only life i had was this institute, i had lost touch with my family, friends and all the time i was busy in either checking papers, assignments, coordinating international seminar & conference.
I had successfully conducted an international seminar in Jan 2009 and my hardwork was appreciated by all delegates and my bosses but i knew something was missing and that was the team work and coordination, if someone expects one person can do it all the let me tell you it is impossible as you have many enemies who dont want you to progress but i continued and coordinated an international conference at Hungary and an extende tour in June 2009which was again well appreciated. People were astoud to see a 24 year old girl do so much, they wouldn't say it on the face but they were all jealous. I ignored that and aoncentrated on my work and suddenly it hit me am i doing what i want? Do i enjoy this? Is this what i want to do? I neither had the answer to this nor the time to answer it. I again got busy in this vicious circle of teaching, checking and coordinating.
During this one and a half year what have i gained? 2 gold medals from Szent Istavan University Hungary, 4 volumes of international journals bearing my name as a member, 2 certificates for paper presentations in international seminars and conferences and other certificates of appreciation for coordinating international seminars and conference, this is not what i have earned, i have earned a virtue called patience. Employment teaches you to be patient and yes it has confused me enough so that i can begin unraveling the true story of my life and for that i need courage.

If i wish i can continue where i am and let this vicious circle go on forever may be earn a couple of more international conferences to my credit, then what ??

(TO BE CONTINUED)